MM managed to take my mind off things today..a bit.  Opticians phoned to get me to move the dilation appointment, to tomorrow, (originally 22 Sept), cos the Optician is on hols from Wednesday and wanted to get the referral written before then.  Mixed messages from doctors.  Gone from sad to a bit peeved, cos I am really really confused as to what my next move is supposed to be after the referral.  Guess I will find out tomorrow.  At least, I hope so.